Stressed

I'm so freaking stressed out right now.

The past few months, I haven't done any work. I haven't paid attention in class. I haven't done ANYTHING.

So I now have a 35 in my math class.

So now I'm sitting down to do the work I'm missing only to discover that I don't have a single f*cking clue what I'm doing. Sine cosine tangent...what??

I just have no idea what to do today. This is why I stopped doing the work in the first place.

And furthermore, I'm too embarrassed to ask the teacher for help. And I'm too nervous that he's going to flip out on me and get really angry because I haven't paid attention.

But honestly, I don't WANT to know this. I'm never GOING to get it, it's just one of those things that I'm never going to be able to understand. Plus, I'll never remember it when it comes time to take a test. PLUS, I'm never going to NEED this in real life. I plan on running a book and coffee shop, not building skyscrapers and houses!

I just don't understand why I have to learn this stuff! "Because it's on the test."

F*ck the test, who the hell cares! Why are you testing me on something I'm not going to need?